Lolly Renewed

Two months ago my close friend, Susan, died. Since then I have been angry and depressed. Angry that she died. Angry that God would take such a good person from so many people, people who need her. Depressed that I lost a wonderful friend and will never see her again. Every morning I have woke up with the dread of a new day. What will I have to do today? What will be demanded of me? Well....this morning while enjoying my first cup of coffee out on the "veranda" (concrete walls outside my sliding glass doors) I had a light bulb moment. I suddenly realized that I have had the wrong outlook on life. I shouldn't be sad for what I have lost, I need to be happy for what I have been given: 3 beautiful children and a loving husband, a supportive family that is willing to give even if they don't have it, and many great friends. I'm sure there is more, but today, right now, I am concentrating on these. I'm not dwelling on what I lost. I had 14 wonderful years with Susan. I have many great friends that are still in my life, and I want to give them everything I can. My children are so much more than I ever dreamed they would be. How could I forget that? And my loving husband...well, let's just say he is the most patient man alive. He has to be to have put up with me! My family has never wavered or denied me of anything. I love them even more for that. Today is a new day. Today I am renewed. Enjoy today. Enjoy what you have.